BECAUSE THEY WERE GETTING ALL THAT THEY WANTED FROM ME

 

 

Well I’m a person who spent most of my life alone. Whatever I’ve learnt about people is basically via observation. I’d sit in a corner of the room and watch people talk, laugh, cry, happy or sad. And now is a state when I look at people and know who is heart broken and who is having love in the air. But there was one thing very peculiar about everyone I met- “the way they’d connect to me.”

 

A very disadvantage of just observing life is that you believe what comes your way. And BELIEF says “believe in the impossible because miracles happen with the power of belief”. Yes that’s how I was… a person with the highest standards of belief system. I believed that it’s a man’s talent and hard work that takes him to success. I believed what matters most in a relationship is trust and love. I believed that the purest form of being exists in being good friends. But God is a good and a patient teacher and I’m a slow learner.

 

I made thousands of friends… and followed my beliefs with pure honesty. People came, made friends with me, lied to me, hurt me, when their work was done they left. And the belief system?????? FAILED!!!! Each and every time this happened until one day the definition changed to reality: “the whole world is a transaction. If you’re good at giving, you must be good at taking. Only then the balance is maintained.”

 

So many times I’ve seen that an innocent girl loves a guy but the guy loves some other. Observing the innocent girl I could tell she was well natured, cultured, simple who loved with all her heart and soul. “Then why?” she asked me... “why doesn’t he love me??” … I couldn’t say but I knew the answer. She was a “plain jane”.. She wasn’t sexy, she wasn’t shrewd. Her love and emotions never appealed the guy. And the belief system????? FAILED!!!! .. the new definition was: “Not just trust and talent, you must be sexually appealing to win a heart’s attention.”

 

As a dentist I know how hard I work everyday to restore the dental wellbeing of my patients. But when I walk down the road I see labors working so hard even when the summer hours are at peak. And that’s the time I wonder if hard work matters much. .. In the professional atmosphere when I see a person gaining advantage just by means of good contacts I wonder if talent costs anything in the world. And once again my belief system????? FAILED!!!! .. and once again the definition changed : only smart-work leads a person to success and not hard work.

 

After struggling with my emotions for about 20 yrs I’ve finally learnt that its not one’s nature that makes them beautiful.. Its one’s sex appeal that attracts the hungry beast. Its not love and care and emotions that matter, it’s the brain that plays it all. My belief system??? FAILED. Because my friends got whatever they wanted from me but I was stupid enough to believe all lies.

 

We blame the world that people cheat us.. but actually that was us who made mistakes. WE forgot the basic belief system of the eco-system: “SURVIVAL FOR THE FITTEST”.

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Comments (6)

  1. MindLint

    Do you no longer have faith that being good, working hard, doing your best, giving all is the way to success? Sure, it seems like the backstabbers, the butt kissers, the lazy always come out on top, but are they HAPPY?? I will continue to live in my PollyAnna world, where even though I am anything but sexy, I have found love AND Success. Real success!

    July 27, 2012
    1. dr_prerna_singla

      yes.. i think i no longer have faith that good prevails in the world anymore. although everyone is not bad but yes everyone is selfish to the limit that they see nothing else.

      July 29, 2012
  2. Walkaboutman

    Hi friend. It can seem daunting when you feel betrayed by those that were close to you. We cant control what others say and do, but we can as to if we choose to associate with them or not. Your job is just as important as others. You mentioned that you are a dentist. Do you get to talk to anyone about how you feel? I have heard some alarming statistics of dentist re depression. No one like to talk about it…buts its real and sometimes we just need an ear to listen to us. We are here if you need us. Not all the guys out there are A holes. There is a saying “Sometimes you have to kiss a few frogs to find your prince” . Shane

    July 27, 2012
    1. dr_prerna_singla

      dentist re-depression??? no I am not depressed, but yes I’m really not happy with the way the world acts. it may be “everything is fair in love and war” but at last its the heart that is broken and hurt. .. thanks for being there for me, for understanding my pain. Dr.Prerna.

      July 29, 2012
      1. Walkaboutman

        you are in the right place then my friend. At least here our collective minds can make the world a better place……one step at a time. Cheers Doc

        July 29, 2012
        1. dr_prerna_singla

          yes you’re right… cheers!!

          July 30, 2012